i said: i so wish to call u honey, kiss u, tell u how much i love u n hv u by my side n hug u so tight. sobs. anyway, u also must drink more water k.
he said: i so wish to do that also. sigh. how i just wish everything is so fine for us.
i said: everything will be fine de. i've alr realised and learn abt the prob. i'm alr constantly reminding myself wat i shud do. i just need u back badly. )':
he said: u so sure and confident bout it this time?
i said: yes i'll get better de. even tho i cant be completely chng immediately, but im sure i'll get better de.
he said: i've been thinking bout it too. but im afraid if its too soon then things will go back to bad agn.
i said: u mean u're afraid we'll keep havin arguments over lil issues? i've alr gone thru the toughness n i wont wan to go thru it agn for 2nd time. so i'm sure i'll learn to talk to u n discuss over things instead of letting my emotions tk ctrl den think complicated n get angry
he said: im glad to know that. (= maybe we can give ourselves a couple more days or til sat. to completely sort out our thots and then be ready to get back.
i said: sigh. hao ba. i hope it'll only be til tmr. cuz every single day like tat is really very tough.
he said: i'll hope so too. (:
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whatever the issues, look at it as it is.
i may get unhappy he dun do sth for me soon, but it dun mean he wont at all.
so no need to get unhappy at all.
this is the one chance.
treasure him and chng myself.
only den we can have our beautiful world to come.
we can make it thru.
control my temper and my emotions.
discuss and talk nicely with him, dun flare up.
give everything.
sacrifices to take, commitments to make.
do all it takes.
keep things simple.
its all in the mind.
we will make it thru.Labels: change, sms
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Be happy and satisfied.
stay contented with everything he can give me,
with everything he is willing to give up for me.
be thankful and appreciate all the lil things he do.
dun keep saying him.
dun say things on impulse.
i might end up hurting him, just like he might end up hurting me.
dun do to him if u dun wish tat he do it to you.
take things easy.
remember there are many things at work tat he may not hv a choice but to do.
like corporate lunch, or dinner, like gg for cash count and stuff.
he dun hv a say in such stuff. he has to do it.
be supportive. its natural he got such stuff.
let him go ahead.
can always meet after work.
can still text once awhile at work.
control my paranoia.
it wont get me anywhere.
control my emotions and learn to be calm.
give everything.
expect nothing.
we'll be happier.Labels: appreciate, being happy, change, expect nth.
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i was thinking much about us today.
because of the issue we had last nite.
indeed, we have been having issues so often lately.
and it really does make him tired.
its time to end all the endless issues and unhappiness.
its time for me to put an end to the overly emotional and unreasonable feelings away.
its only normal for him to talk to me a bit abt his work here and there.
i would hv done the same.
its normal he have meetings to attend, or company/department stuff to do.
its normal to have occasional funny non work talks w colleagues,
just like how xiuwen paul and i sometimes can get crappy and talk abt non-school stuff.
its normal and cant be blame whn he gets busy and hv datelines to meet and cant msg me much or talk to me much during his break time. i might face w the same stuff whn i start work.
its normal if he hv to cancel our arrangement to met for lunch or dinner at times cuz of wat he got to do for work, cuz he got no choice.
at least he still shows that he's happy to see me, he still cares for me, stil show tender loving and care to me. he's sweet to me still in his own simple ways, such as wanting me to eat more, telling me im pretty in his eyes, holding my hands and playing with me to make me smile.
give everything,
expect nothing.
take things easy.
look at them simple.
i'll be happier.
he'll be happier.
we'll be happier.
sacrifices to take, committments to make.
TRUE LOVE ENDURES THROUGH ALL HARDSHIP AND TOUGHEST TIMES.
TRUE LOVE IS NOT POSSESSION AND MEAN WANTING THE PERSON TO BE HAPPY AND SUCCESSFUL.
TRUE LOVE GIVES SUPPORT AND CONCERN.
TRUE LOVE NEVER FAILS.
since i love him so much, and i am determined and need him as my last man, as my husband,
i should work it all out for him. and with him.
we can and we will.Labels: change, expect nth., love
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